Strings of Doubt
- Paul Clive
- May 23, 2022
- 1 min read
We sometimes get caught in our own web. Afraid to let go of past trauma or present mistakes or the fear of the future being a repetition of the past. It can be difficult to let go and allow oneself to be open, vulnerable and genuine. Self-doubt and lack of self-worth can be devastating and even the smallest feelings can team up against us to prevent us from trying to find true happiness and love
Strings of Doubt
Tied to these Lilliputian dreams
Building houses from these doubts
To hide my heart from sorrows
Brought on in future droughts
Afraid to forge tomorrows
For fear of yesterday
Cautious to light these fires
Afraid you'll run away
Both built-in and burnt out
The features of this bug
Guilt in-built but crossed out
Immolation of past-selves
Tethered to these superstitious circles
Where do I fit in this machine?
Tracks that come back in repetitious cycles
Am I worth remembering?
Underground and out of sync
Despite serendipity in the way we meet
Roll out these red carpet apologies
Hoping for these red letter days
I openly confess, I'm horrendously sentimental
Seeking omens, portents of romantic potential
A flame isolated, a Gulliver less traveled
Holding onto hope that, my chances aren't unraveled
Pluck these heart strings and my soul sings
And what a beautiful sight with the stars in your eyes
Caught up in a web of my own design
With these kissing lips left wondering
Afraid to cut these bindings off
Cut the awkwardness to make this effortless
Afraid because my timings off
Hoping I'm really worth the effort
Feeling sputtered and stalled out
Can I really become the one you want?
Gripped too tight, need to loosen up
Until I've got no strings to hold to me down

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