Orbit

The seasons change. It can be hard to tell if we'll ever see the sun. Sometimes it's easy to forget, as we build ourselves up and lie to ourselves, how fragile all this really is. Even the Earth itself is changing and we find ourselves in strange seasons with even stranger weather.

ORBIT

Even this sadness has its place dear

Packed away all nice and neat

The dust is coming almost daily

The Earth gives way under our feet

Swept up

Under the depths

In tongues repressed

And sins revealed by tides

You washed away the footprints

But you still left a thousand knives

Etched into these stones

The throne room of these giants

That arrogant abyss

Of emptiness eternal

This loneliness I reminisce about

As sure as a planet's orbit

No faith in the begotten

Or the constancy of mortals

Bent, broken and forgotten

With no pause given for morals

Caught unawares

As the gaping mouth of death descends

Herself in all her winged fury

Blotting out the fucking sun

Sands escape each hourglass

Choking the life of all you have left

That fast approaching doom

Advancing across the dunes

There is such peace in that acceptance

Orderly and true

Each an end and a beginning

Each goodbye and each hello

You do your best to stay eternal

Carve a halo for yourself

Or for the true love you're adoring

For the soul of those beloved

Tell yourself they're each undying

Clockwork dolls all in a world

Of yarn and twine and paper buildings

Until it all goes up in smoke

Until the darkened skyline wanders

With bowls of dust and stomach pain

Take your medicine by daylight

Ne'er knowing if the sun will rise again

With such ease I was once smitten

When I saw your eyes aglow

Love flutters sudden and unbidden

Sparks fly and embers start to flow

I buried bones here

I set down roots

I called for answers

Silence hurts

I danced beside you

Set these fires here

Held you tight

In any storm

We made our peace here by the river

Where we carved our names on stones

Now I set a place here at the table

Two settings though I am alone

I say your name dear, I'm forgetting

And my mouth is full of rot

Tangled mosses, fetid mushrooms

All that will grow in this dark heart

I remember you set for sailing

And left that piece there by the bed

And told me sadness had a home there

Twasn't a sin to lay my head

It's not the earthquakes, not the shaking

Not the loss of all our kin

Just the empty and the heartache

Forgetting your face once again

I've got your picture by my bedside

I'll read a prayer, sing a hymn

And with a smile I'll remember

As the clouds are rolling in

Even sadness has its place

Packed away here in this home

Swept up under the depths

Blotting out the fucking sun

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